Im so bloodie stressed..... N Depressseddddd.....
I dont know why im feeling so depressed.... Actually i think i know why.. But i cant write it on my friendster blog.. in case ppl read it.. here i dont think many ppl will knwo about it?
Im so depressed. soooooooo depressed. I dont want to be here. i hate NTU. I HATE NTU. i said it. Im not happy here. thats why sometimes i skip classes.. its like.. theres nothing for me to look forward to. Social life at NTU is not what i expected. This is not what i expected it to be. I always thought uni was like well you know.. UNI! Ppl who went uni last time all spoke of their Uni days like.. Wow that was Uni it was damn fun etc..... But they were all from NUS. None were from NTU. so now the question here is... IS it Me? Or is jsut the Uni?
See, i dont tkae part in any sch related activities.. cos i feel so dman extra if i were to go.. i dont have the kaki to go number 1.. and its like ppl are all chummy-chummy.. i dont think i fit in. Seriously. Somehow, i think that i would have been better off at NUS. At least, i can meet some punjab or hindi friends.. or even local our singaporeans.. chinese malay indian.. and i think they would be much better off than the ppl at ntu in general.... NTU is just soooo..... AARGH!
Im dying in here. i thought poly was bad. but in poly, i still maanged to have a great time, join this and that.. have friends all over.. thru ogl, tep, ipp... you know? Here..... its me in this small place.. and i just look forward to getting out from NTU at the end of the day. i odnt even look forward going to school. its just kills me.
GOING TO UNI KILLS ME. I hate Uni. I HATE NTU. IM NOT HAPPY HERE. Why!????
I wanna cry but i know im too old to do it the crying way. nothing gonna change. I have been hinking switch to NUS.. but.. that menas i gotta waste my $6K+++ for my ntu 1st yr. On top of it, i gotta take on the new NUS fees.. more ex then what im paying now.. n i feel terrible if i were to quit.. and waste my dad $$$ of $6K, almost $7K+++ !!!! What am i to do?
I dont know how im gonna drag myself to NTU for the rest of my 3 yrs of my life there.......... Already 2nd semester and life aint going smooth for me here. I hate it. Yeah i got into somehting prestigious.. I got into local uni. but end of day.. am i happy??? NO! Most, if not ALL of my friends are working.. i dont have any buddy with me who enter uni.. know what i mena> I'm in this alone. and when u r alone.. in such situations.. things can seem so damn scary! Why am i not happy here??? Why o why??
Maybe i should be more active in sch? But the stuff jsut dont interest me.. as i said.. it all seems so chummy-chummy... i dont see how i fit in! wanna do emcee thing..in ntu.. but wtf.. the ppl never even reply to my email.... wth...
im bored. i hate ntu. and i jsut hate life for now. nothing is going according to how i wanted it to be. pls i beg you dont come to ntu. dont even think of going to ntu. u will die in here. unless u r one of those chummy-chummy sorts.. or if you can be the chummy-chummy sort.. then u r most welcome.
Oh well...... Guess i just gotta live through it........................................................................................
Shall i change uni? But its like almost throwing away $10K!!!!!!! And the ppl will be even younger than me! Oh god........ n the advise i got is that.. my studies here is no problem.. there is nothign wrong with it. but then why i feel so bloodie fucked up here?
I think NTU needs a more global feel.. it needs more variety of ppl.... not jsut from beijing ok.. (come on la.. there is even 1 shop dedictaed to Beijing food in canten B)!... WTF!???
Only reason i didnt go Nus was bcos its FASS.. n they say it sucks.. liek the lsoers club kinda thing? u cant go anywhere u go FASS.. that type. so thats why i chose ntu.. haiz... NUS has punj club.. has north indians.. i will feel more at home........ wont feel so neglected n left out.
I HATE NTU! Maybe im even starting to hate Singapore. I cant wait to get out of this NTU, SIngapore, and then get my degree n get out of this place!.. I think i need to migrate. im sick of the life n ppl here. but bless my friends in SIngapore who have been my support system all these while. Without these ppl, from poly n outside friends... i would have left this place by now. Thank you my dear friends. I appreciate you alot. From the bottom of my heart.
Its jsut this NTU is killing me. Im not happy here. come on tell me what to do!?
I dont know why im feeling so depressed.... Actually i think i know why.. But i cant write it on my friendster blog.. in case ppl read it.. here i dont think many ppl will knwo about it?
Im so depressed. soooooooo depressed. I dont want to be here. i hate NTU. I HATE NTU. i said it. Im not happy here. thats why sometimes i skip classes.. its like.. theres nothing for me to look forward to. Social life at NTU is not what i expected. This is not what i expected it to be. I always thought uni was like well you know.. UNI! Ppl who went uni last time all spoke of their Uni days like.. Wow that was Uni it was damn fun etc..... But they were all from NUS. None were from NTU. so now the question here is... IS it Me? Or is jsut the Uni?
See, i dont tkae part in any sch related activities.. cos i feel so dman extra if i were to go.. i dont have the kaki to go number 1.. and its like ppl are all chummy-chummy.. i dont think i fit in. Seriously. Somehow, i think that i would have been better off at NUS. At least, i can meet some punjab or hindi friends.. or even local our singaporeans.. chinese malay indian.. and i think they would be much better off than the ppl at ntu in general.... NTU is just soooo..... AARGH!
Im dying in here. i thought poly was bad. but in poly, i still maanged to have a great time, join this and that.. have friends all over.. thru ogl, tep, ipp... you know? Here..... its me in this small place.. and i just look forward to getting out from NTU at the end of the day. i odnt even look forward going to school. its just kills me.
GOING TO UNI KILLS ME. I hate Uni. I HATE NTU. IM NOT HAPPY HERE. Why!????
I wanna cry but i know im too old to do it the crying way. nothing gonna change. I have been hinking switch to NUS.. but.. that menas i gotta waste my $6K+++ for my ntu 1st yr. On top of it, i gotta take on the new NUS fees.. more ex then what im paying now.. n i feel terrible if i were to quit.. and waste my dad $$$ of $6K, almost $7K+++ !!!! What am i to do?
I dont know how im gonna drag myself to NTU for the rest of my 3 yrs of my life there.......... Already 2nd semester and life aint going smooth for me here. I hate it. Yeah i got into somehting prestigious.. I got into local uni. but end of day.. am i happy??? NO! Most, if not ALL of my friends are working.. i dont have any buddy with me who enter uni.. know what i mena> I'm in this alone. and when u r alone.. in such situations.. things can seem so damn scary! Why am i not happy here??? Why o why??
Maybe i should be more active in sch? But the stuff jsut dont interest me.. as i said.. it all seems so chummy-chummy... i dont see how i fit in! wanna do emcee thing..in ntu.. but wtf.. the ppl never even reply to my email.... wth...
im bored. i hate ntu. and i jsut hate life for now. nothing is going according to how i wanted it to be. pls i beg you dont come to ntu. dont even think of going to ntu. u will die in here. unless u r one of those chummy-chummy sorts.. or if you can be the chummy-chummy sort.. then u r most welcome.
Oh well...... Guess i just gotta live through it........................................................................................
Shall i change uni? But its like almost throwing away $10K!!!!!!! And the ppl will be even younger than me! Oh god........ n the advise i got is that.. my studies here is no problem.. there is nothign wrong with it. but then why i feel so bloodie fucked up here?
I think NTU needs a more global feel.. it needs more variety of ppl.... not jsut from beijing ok.. (come on la.. there is even 1 shop dedictaed to Beijing food in canten B)!... WTF!???
Only reason i didnt go Nus was bcos its FASS.. n they say it sucks.. liek the lsoers club kinda thing? u cant go anywhere u go FASS.. that type. so thats why i chose ntu.. haiz... NUS has punj club.. has north indians.. i will feel more at home........ wont feel so neglected n left out.
I HATE NTU! Maybe im even starting to hate Singapore. I cant wait to get out of this NTU, SIngapore, and then get my degree n get out of this place!.. I think i need to migrate. im sick of the life n ppl here. but bless my friends in SIngapore who have been my support system all these while. Without these ppl, from poly n outside friends... i would have left this place by now. Thank you my dear friends. I appreciate you alot. From the bottom of my heart.
Its jsut this NTU is killing me. Im not happy here. come on tell me what to do!?
