went for SMU interview on tuesday.. 17 april 07.. all mostly JC students.. oh god.. THEY WERE SO SO SOOOOOO STUCK UP!!!!! But one of them kept smilling at me etc.. so i also smiled at her.. she seemed nice.. anyway..then the interview totally sucked! Although it was something i came across before... SIA girl article... these JC ppl kept like interjecting everything i say kinda thing.. Anyway... then essay was kinda ok... dont know la... But the interview.. one thing the final thing i said i guess is the only thing i can rest my hope on for me to get into SMU! Its when i said that i think its all jsut a marketing gimmick.. liek a PR Campaign.. cos of the budget airlines coming up all that... actually.. haha... we did that in PR class with MS Lewis!! So i was liek last thing.. that anyone said.. the last thing of the whole interview i said that.. then the prof were like interesting.. thats a new angle.. unfortunately.. didnt venture further into it.. So yeah! Hope la!! Really hope i get into this SMU! Already got into NTU! Communications course.. Woo~~ But dont know how yet! Anyway...

Then after that.. went to visit Mrs geetha at stc... bloodie hell! got hit on by my junior?/ i think it was butchism! lesbianism?? will write my letter to the school here... psot it up soon!

Haiz.. so mch drama happened today man.. stayed at aujnt hosue yest.. yest sat went to visit grandgfather at CCk... he ewas so happy to see us! Good good! Old ppl msut keep them happy! Then.. after that finish at 12pm like that... took bus from cck then pass by mum house.. then i thinking why go back so early? haiz follow my aunt back la! Still early what. go back so early do what also? So went back.. then in the end at night my dad say why dont u stay? so i was like.. ok la! even though no clothes.. nvm lucky my aunt had extra contact lens case.. used that.. then came back today. my god so much drama man! My mum was so not happy that i stayed at aunt's place1

fisrt i told my bro go bedok la they sell nice shirts only $12... DAMN NICE! Then later... my mum told him car tyre punchet or something... cant.. so then ok nvm. then i later when i finilise on my side, my sis call me.. i told her.. i staying aunt place.. then my mum was like.. not happy man! shes like nvm u wait there i come fetch you! SHE tell me i can pack my bags go and stay there permenant! watever la! i mena my dad is there... he felt like he wanted me to stay.. so whats wrong? also my aunt house only what... not say im staying some guy house or what!!! my bro dont come back all.. my mum cant do anything.. come on la.. me? i odnt see whats the prob?? im 21 also./.. dad custody! then cant i spend the nite at aunt oplace?? COME ON LA!

Haiz... today... my mum driove my sis to COLLECT $$$ from my dad.. my sis also too much la. she only come to take $ from my dad. other than that, she can forget him. doesnt bothter to call him or anythign also u know! never call and ask daddy how r u ? etc... only when need $$$ will ask me to take from him.. or then call him when i tell her to call him to ask!

Too much ya??? have some feeling la! the fella is sick.. hes your dad.. u supposed to stay with him.. u odnt want then fine.. at least have some heart. i dont know la. at least my bro now his eyes open.. last time couldnt get along./... but now i think he knows! he underatand! haiz...

Then... dont want to write in here la.. but my mother is too much... she shouting at the car to my aunt all.. my aunt raise her voice to my sis in her hosue.. cos my sis was dman rude to my dad n me.. my aunt shock how ocme my sis so young talking demanding $$ like that from him.. and we keep quiet only.. cos we r used to it. my aunt didnt like it la.. then l;ater my sis tell my aunt dont interfere.. then my aunt say she never interfere... then later haiz.. they scold each other at the door.. dont knwo what my sis told my mum in the car... my mum also can sue this as an excuse la... to GET back at my dad/ aunt that kinda thing... she also make noise la.. how can u call a woman widow or what? she shout in public. my mother really no shame man...

i odnt knwo la. i damn fed up with her. if i ahd a choice, i also dont want to stay in this hosue with her. i want my own palce. no stress you know. i stay with her in her hosue only i stress. i wanan get out,. but my dad condition liek that.. i cant. gotta wait til lwe get a house of our own then can la.. then my mum talk COCK man.. say she will send men to my aunt house rape her! Fuck her la. my aunt is the only want who take care of my dad... no one else did. my aunt did. i gfeel so indebted to her man.. then here my mum talking about her liek tat. if my mum never divorce my dad.. goodness.. we wouldnt even be in such a position today man. i no stress. my bro n sis also ok. no ptroblem. can study all that.. wont be wayward all...

still ppl r jealous. how come i got this kind family prob also, i still can study weklll.. go to uni all that. haiz... n the worst part is.. the word ppl say is the most beautiful word on earth.. that word... that WORD..and that WORD'S WORD... are the one killing my dad... how can it not be true when 2 ppl ahve said the same thing>?? HUH????? TELL ME! imagine lioving with the truth man.. it sucks.

haiz. im damn depressed. totally. nvm la. i jsut gonan think for myself. but i cant. i always think n worry for my bro n sis,. they are my life... haiz... i hope they also will get thru this time.. so can move on go to POly all.. be somewhere in life la.. at least easy next time. if not what work factory worker? pls la..

ok la. im signing off.. im happy tosay i lsot 3kg1 yipea! 50KG LEFT TO GO.. myust cut la.. eat lunch only. dinner eat bread.. 100% can lsoe one! yIPEA!!!~~ MUST GO CUT HAIR ALSO! so long already.. feeling hot.. haiz..

ok then! Toodles!!!

Manchuria

i just cant stand this. My mum keeps asking me for $$! for goodness sake, jsut bcos im working part time, doesnt mean i will spend the $$ for her or whatever right! I also wanna keep the $ for myself.. save etc.. or spend here and there a bit! She ask me buy microwave for her la.. then keep asking me to buy this and that.. household expenses.. buy spray... oh take money from my father to buy soap detergent... buy food ration for the house! how disgusting can she get?? yeah im supposed to stay with my dad... and i jsut cant wait to go back to our own house when we buy one,...

hes sick now.. so staying with sis temp.. and i shifted to mums place... wth... why she ask me take $ from him to pay this and that.. rental la this la that la... yeah la i know not fair to her also.. but its only temp.. wtf she divorce in the first place??? make us children suffer. my bro is wayward... my sis i dont know what to say.. n me grappling bet both sides.. run up n down liek a stupid bitch... and im goodness just turn 21.. i didnt even get to enjoy my teenhood yrs.. ppl out there partying clubbing etc etc... ME!!!!!????????????

i feel damn irritated. totally. my $ is mine... shouldnt my mum be telling me to save $$... will be good for my future etc? instead she asking me spend for her.. spend on this and that! I hate it man.. i mean sometimes i buy this n that for my bro.. sometimes buy dinner.. i dont claim back $$... few times like this n you knwo how much it is! it piles up so fast... money moves out so fast! then at least let me keep whatever little i am earning! She asks me to give her monthly pocket $$!! COME ON LA!!!! IM NOT WORKING AS IN WORKING!!! IM JSUT PART TIME BEFORE UNI!!!! WTF! and by the way, for the record... i dont have the tradition of giving my FIRST PACKET PAY TO MY PAAREANTS?? THAT WAS IN YOUR GENERATION! NOT NOW! so u can dream on... mera paisa hain mera... MERA MERA MERA. i know GOD SAYS kuch bi TERA NAHIN! And you cant be like everything is mine... that kind... BUT WHATEVER! MERA MERA MERA> MINE MINE MINE>

i cant wait to get out from here.. waiting to buy a hosue only man... dman fuck la.. life sucks.. u jsut dont know where u will be next min.. i could never imagine my life to be liek this! But it is.. i cant believe it myself... so sad man.. but whatever...

will update soon about an incident that happened on tuesday... OMG! dman disgusting n retarded.

MANCHURIA

Vesakhi has come and gone... Didnt even get to go to temple! Was telling my mum to go... but she herself like didnt want to go.. so didnt go in the end on sat.. then Sun... aunt uncle and cousin came over... steamboat... it was cool.. ok la... then i heard something i didnt believe.... cant write here.. i still dont knwo to believe it or not.. but i also learn something else... about someone damn close to me... i cant believe that this person would do such a thing! its so hard to believe.. but my source tells me.. 2 of his trustable sources told him... haiz.. why ah?? Why msut u do it liek that... im damn disappointed la..

Anyway... today went for SMU interview.. all mostly JC ppl.. only 1 poly girl with me.. n my god.. my table sucked.. the JC ppl were like ... think so highly of themselves!!! the overall feeling i got.. its like they think they are so smart that kinda thing.. i think the interview sucked for me man... its like... i felt that i didnt really speak well.. oh well.. whatever... but i pray i get in.. but if not... i still got NTU to fall bakc on! OH YEAH!!! YEAH BABY!! IM ACCEPTED INTO NTU COMMUNICATIONS COURSE!!!!!!!!!! WOOOOOOOO~~~~~~~~

then after that went to bras basah... went to find my bro book for him... but popular was close.. then the knowledge bookstore sucked.... the books were damn old.. nvm.. BUT THE PRICES!!! ATROCIOUS!!!! i rather buy a brand new book.. only $2-3 diff some more...

then.... went to national librARY.. DONT KNWO FOR WHAT ALSO.. BUT TO see see as i ahd time to kill.. borrowed 2 origami book and one beading book..

ok so then took bus to my sis sch... supposed to meet mrs geetha... she was like damn happy to see me! so told her my Siploma with Meri.. shes like damn happy! then she was saying her husband.. says im so bubbly! always smiling.. hahs! he always talks about me./... faint faintq!

then met some sec 1 girls in the library... punjabi that type...ntil girls la... They were so nice!!! ask me if im relief teacher.. Im like NO! Im an ex student.. your senior.. hahas.. then they ask me to tell them stories! so i told them all the stc ghost stories i know la.. the headless turban at science lab.. the vacant toilet.. the link walkways.. got spirit of little child.. then the firing range? artilery room? something liek that./... that dungeon place... then the hall the music organ thing.. ALAMAK!! FORGET TO TELL THEM ABOUT THE AUDITORIUM!!! n the glass mirror thing... nvm.. next time can...

then 2/ 3 of the girls were saying that they liek my voice! and they kept telling me to be a DJ! I like your voice.. etc.. im like????? yeah.. actually i've heard that before... but they were so pleasant man those girls!!

ok next.. didnt get to meet any teachers.. all bukits only man! so sad! all new faces! then.. all my time teachers gone!??? anyway.... so went to canteen to get drink! with my sis la.. then coming back.. WTH!! this group of girls.. this one girl.. shes like can u come here... follow me.. im like?? puzzled.. so im like..?? so she jsut brought me to her firend.. then the girl put like heart sign to me!@ im like WTF in my mind la.. then... she said my friend likes you.. im like WTF! then later the girl was liek can i Kiss you?? and she came SOOO CLOSE!!!! nearly kissed me man... bloodie hell! i quickly got away! and i saw one girl seated... she was video taping it.. and later i told them off... hey youre bringing down the reputation of the school man.. come on la.. SO SICK!!!!!

i gonna complain to the school directly man! YUCKS!!!!!!!!! my time.. plp dont do such things!! at least not in front of my eyes.. i think they were in sec 3 or 4... cos doing napfa... wait la.. i gonna complain to the school! should i call or should i email them??? i think email maybe... lets see man!

then after stc, went to plaza sing cos told my sis we will have lunch together.. went pastamania.. know hwat? i think if you pay student price, the serving is like Damn little man.. honest... like 2/5 less of normal... almost 1/3 less of normal! haiz.. so lesson learnt.. student meal... they odnt give fll setrving..cso i saw others eating.. it was freaking full serivng.. anyway.. glad my sis enjoyed it!

OK LA.. sign off here.. felt so sad about SMU today.. dont really think i did well.. essay also sucked!

'so then.. todles! Omg!! tODAY I DREAMT OF SOMEONE.. AND THAT GAVE ME INSPIRATION OF writiong for my essay at smu... i chose the question.. "write to a friend about things that excite you"... so yeah... dont knwo how la...

Anyway! this morning i woke up.. it was amazing! i felt so energised! like... i dreamt i meet someone... dink ink dink... wont ay who.. cos i never met this person before.. but i cant believe of all ppl i dreamt of this person.. felt so light headed! OOMPH!!! im still baskin in it!

Toodles! manchuria

was just looking at the flowerpod community... ppl talking about Malacca! Oh my god.. malacca has so many fond memories in my heart... from young, when i was 5 yrs old, been going to malacca for the temple program! yes.. and every yr after that been going back there... except for 2004 the SARS year.. AHH!! I am relocating memories of Malacca!!... ;)

Young time, we use to go to Mahkhota parade, jusco, orchard parade shopping centre.. we sued to spend money like water.. whatever you want is jsut BUY BUY BUY... last time.. then my dad got PSA chalet right.. so we will ALWAYS go stay in psa chalet... those resort type.. got kitchen, 2 bedroom.. n its like under the hosue got space that type.. wahhH!! I want to go back thetre.... but no more!!! The psa chalets no longer exist!! ;(.. then we used to order egg/ ham bread.. the guest house.. the ppl will make for us.. and send to our room.. then got swimming pool... the swing.. the big garden.. n fantastic thing is the view overlooking the sea. Our chalet was jsut infront of the sea. like 5 m liek that away from the gate / beach sand.. i miss those days.. i can imagine looking at our young time pics at the chalet... my god... how ive grown up over the years.. next time if i ever get married, i will bring my kids there.... show them this place...

anyway... then the red brick area... mahkhota parade.. my sis when young time ah.. she will go parkson.. STEAL CHOP!!! DONT KNOW WTF>. she had some sort of fascination with chops... she curi the chop n put in her pocket one.. lucky never kena caught!! young time la... anyway....

As time passes and years pass, with changes in my family, Malacca is never what is used to be. Now.. its in the hotels.. we walk to the temple.. cos no parking space one la.. n its boring.. i miss my childhood days you know! i so so sooo miss it. thats why i will kill some bastards man... no i cant kill them.. i dont know how.. but if i could, i will kill them.

Anyway... Malacca... wonder how it will be this yr.. dont knwo why my mother ah.. got some problem ah! she like little but damn angry one... fiorst she ask me come stay iwth her first... until we get house.. then now, she little bit not happy.. she will tell me fuck off go your own house.... watever la. i knwo i didnt chose stay iwth her right... i know i did not make the wrong decision... im glad i chose to stay with my dad.. i mean you fuckers all out there... stop telling me oh i made a wrong choice la.. why i never chose my mum la... BLA BLA BLA>>>> IM FREAKING >> BUT I HAVE GROWN UP SINCE I WAS 12>> I WAS FORCED TO GROW UP AT A YOUNG AGE>>> MY MENTAL CAPACITY HAD TO DEVELOP FASTER THAN I WANTED IT TO>> I HAD TO HAVE A STRONGER MIND<>> N BEING ELDEST>>> I have to think of my bro sis.. i always try n put them first! So stop the fuck of shooting me around... telling me HOW TO LIVE MY LIFE> UNDERSTAND U BLOODIE FUCKERS???? Better be.

As i was saying.. Malacca.. AHH!! This year.. will be no diff i guess... but i think we goign on a fri this time.. i wanna go SHOPPING!!!!!!! feel like going to this TESCO?? and Mahkhota parade also!! 2 yrs in a row go to Malacca.. didnt get a chance to go there man!!! Sucks la... So i really hope get to go this yr.. and not jsut visit the shops near the hotel... thats boring!! Its like neighbourhood shops.. but neighbourhood shops even more FUN!!

sopeaking of which... i got a great phone now.. can take pics! Yipea!! Im gonna snap snap snap pics ogf myself!!! of the scenery.. EVERYTHING!!!!!!!!!!!! YIPEA!!!!!!! I love myself!

WAHHH!! I want to take my driving liscence!! I cant take it anymore... gotta control man.. save $$$... but in the end i will ask my dad to pay one la... where i got $$ to pay! So wasted this yr STILL CANNOT DRIVE TO MALACCA!!!! I dont care. by next yr, i will! After my SAT now, i will be goign to take driving liscence. only 20 sessions what! then one week do 2 lessons... 10 weeks can be done.. or if do 3 sessions one week.. WAH!!!! 7 weeks.. 2 months!! Yipea! After my sat on May 5... i will go register advance theory.. basic i got it long time back alreayd.. study advance.. go practical.. yipea!! u will see me driving soon.. i hope.....

ok la.. today is vesakhi.. wanted to cut my hair for quite some time now already.. haven cut since oct 2005.. OOPS!! Yeah... so i think better go cut soon! let it grow again.. my hair getting messy man...

reminds me.. past few days goign top work.. got this lady giving out small piece of paper.. for part time job.. first two times.. took and walked off.. then day before yest... took from hewr.. she greeted me Good Morning! and handed out.. so i replied.. Good Morning! ok... Next day (yesterday)... I again took the paper cos she handing out.. and se was like.. Godd Morning! I LOVE YOUR HAIR!!!! Im like.. good morning.. Thanks!!! 9cos i dont knwo what else to say..).. Then.... Today... she saw me, she recognised me.. she said.. Good Morning! How r u sweetheart? Im like.. so shocked n taken aback.. where will a chinese woman ever call me sweetheart.. like as in.. calling me as if i was a yougn girl?? i mena i dont htink i look like a teen.. liek that.. im kjinfda matured that knd.. so im like.. quite surprised she could see i was young.. and she asked.. Hi sweetheart..how r u today? Im like.. Im great.. Thanks! and oh yeah.. of course i greeted her with a chirpy good morning too!!

Hahas.. Hope monday see her there again.. Wll great her too! her Good Morning.. I mena if ppl are nice to you.. why not??? anyway.. think will stop writing n go n continue surfing the net.. n visit my old memories of days of my life in malacca... Tataz!!

went mustafa the other day my dad wanted get clothes.. and my aunt also there also.. hah.. first time i went with them together.. 3 of us... except for when i young kid that time maybe... so.. i was like taking pics of myself wearing caps! Always wanted to buy a White cap la.. nike or adidas or reebok.. like white cap.. BUT!!!!!!!!!! MY MOTHER AH>>>

SHE TELL ME WHAT FOR WANT TO WEAR CAP! WEAR DUPATTA OVER YOUR HEAD LA! I CAN CHOKE AND DIE MAN! I MEAN RELIGION IS RELIGION! BUT GOODNESS SAKE!!! THIS IS SG!!!!! i dont ask you wear winter clothes in arab dessert right! cant take it man.. who cares. i cut my hair.. never felt better! And my dad was the one give green light. thank god i cut my hair man.. trust me... you will feel good.. like you never ever did in your entire life! You keep your hair bun up so long all for what? Collect dust? religion is religion la.. But my dad tell me.. PPL GO TO MOON AND COME BACK ALREADY>> THEN I ADD IN>> YOU STILL WANT TO BE STUCK IN INDIA VILLAGE MAKING CHAPATTIS???? NO RIGHT!
So cut is cut.. you feel like a diff person... and thats good! See if i didnt cut my hair.. i will still look so gundu.. n now i know yeah baby~~~ Im preety! haha! I KNOW IT! whehter u use make up or what.. it doesnt matter. makeup is there to ENHANCE YOU! so use it! funny.. few months back was in hosp.. the staff nurse was like.. this one your daughter?? WAH!! HER CHEECKS SO ROSY!!! In my heart im like.. good god oh GollY! Im wearing Blusher la you dufus! She think natural?? HAHA.. I was laughin inside man...

ON THE WAY TO NTU INTERVIEW FOR COMMUNICATIONS DEGREE>>> HAVE TO LOOK GOOD! LEARNT MY LESSON FROM NP! NEVER TAKE ME IN FOR MASS COMM ONE COS OF MY LOOKS LAST TIME>> NOW BETTER THAN BEFORE RIGHT!!!!
But dont know la.. Chinese ppl.. ALOT OF chinese ppl say im preety!?? Punj. they can kiss their bonde la... they will say their bonde is A1 grade... instead of saying in preety... But yeah.. funny ah? its always the same.. my eyes.. they will be like 'tha te yen ching hen mei oh!'.. or her nose damn sharp.. oh her eyelashes dman long.. real or fake.. dont knwo la...


Whatever la.. Anyway wanna update my pics!

ME AND MY Lil Cousin... When we were in the car on the way to Pierce... We both Love Pink!

WHOS THAT GIRL?? .... WHO ELSE BUT ME! POSING! I LOVE TAKING PICS OF MYSELF! TOM I GOING TO TAKE MORE AT ROYAL HOTEL OUTSIDE HERE THE STATUE!!!

Me at pierce reservoir.. Me and My sis.. last time ppl say we are Twins! PL ask us.. are u all twins!??? this is recent.. taken in March 2007.



Now this pic with my sis... Took it like 1 yr ago if im not wrong?? Also at pierce! My fav taking photo place!

And AWW~! Me And Sheru!! I love this pic! M yarm looks so small n slim! Haha... what a joke!but msut admit la.. got a bit shape right! ;)

GOOD NIGHTS!! SWEET DREAMS! I GOTTA SLEEP NOW COS TOM LOTSA PREP TO DO TO GET READY FOR HI TEA WITH THE BUDDIYAS! MUACKZZ!

Wow so many things to update.. NYP!! Finally Graduated!! WOOOOSS!~~~~~ All those days.. yr1 was gundu gundu... but had fun with my big group of friends.. YJ Jess Nana Din.. Ada.. then after that with Sarah Felicia.. then Yr2 was split up.. had to join new class... and it sucked.. thougth had a group of girl friends.. but maybe it wasnt meant to be? Dont know la.. Then... was OGL.. P Team... Wow! So fast.. those days in Pteam uni.. im like punj/indian stuck in China Airlines... Its a joke.. look at the uni.. as if from china airlines.. n my clothes they made.. god it was soo loose for me! i looked horrid! nvm.. anyway in poly was also the first time i cut my hair... hahas! National Day 2004! Then was TEP! hahas.. DMSM.. met so many new ppl... Aisyah W, yaya,... Andrea.. Fizah.. So many ppl la! All that BBW AMg! Modelling for it.. goign to town do interview.. asking plus size shops to be in our mag.. wah!!! Then... EMRS... Wow! Met Brenda Lim.. God! my sup man she.. Anyway.. met Poh Choo.. Yenny! a couple other ppl,...had fun there too.. then was FUSION! I group leader at Fusion.. Wah!! Stress man those days... But We had damn fun! ANd we won BEST OUTLET!!! So happy.. if my Fusion friends reading this... remember the Thai visitors?? and i was like WOO HOO!~~~ And there was still one Thai lady in thge shop... my god.. and sleeping on the floor.. taking photo with the Shinco cam.. Aishah B the photographer.. wah! Then the 'SCARY MOVIE' someone help me burn.. Funny la.. but loved those days too! But alas.. some B****** ppl gave me B+ only.... cos Fusion i think i didnt get A.. cos i refused to pay for the missing stock.. Hey! I never sign agreement with you ok! That i will pay... under 21... contract law... not valid! Im not liable to pay!!! Hahas... Okies then... Yr3 dman fast!

Yr3 was more easy going.. did projects with other ppl.. mixed with others in the class.. somehow, yr3 got to know classmates better.. saddest thing is that towards the end of IPP, you get to knwo ppl better... and we had terrible news cos of D... oh yeah! i could take it.. i cried in the hosp room.. i mean friendship is one thing la.. but LIFE right!! LIFE... im like.. haiz.. watever past is past la.. LIFE is diff matter altogether!

Then IPP right... had a blast though the work was BORING with a capital 'B'!!! Met valerie there... my boss also dman good.. but i dont want to talk about work now.. too stress already about Work!

tHEN ALST SEM yR3~ gOT PROJECTS... AND IT WAS NEVER ENDING.. HANI AND i ALWAYS END UP DOING A LOT of work... stay till 10pm 10pm one... i remember those days boy! Then it was exams.. and last day PR Paper.. Bid Hani farewell! Wah she hug me.. i want to cry.. cos like last day! I felt so weird! Like felt funny, weird etc etc.. Hiaz.. but lucky we still maintain contact and went out once for somehting! Wink Wink!

Took one week rest then started work back at IPP co... one month now already.. first pay was $x. Then one week later got results right! graduated right! confirm! Wah! Increase by $y!! Happy man! Almost increase by half of $x. !! @%^&

Results came out.. one day i was sleeping, felt lazy to work.. was raining that morning.. wah so comfy to sleep in! I saw my phone msg.. Jess msg me.. tell Me Congrats.. You...!! Im like.. ???? Confused. i jsut woek up.. whats this im reading? then later double confirm with her! I SAW MY NAME ON WEBBIE TOOOO!!!! WAH I HAPPY LA.. But actually, nothing much.. the feelign died down. im like so what??? But definitely it will help me get into Uni!

Uni i went NTU interview..for communications course. dman retarded la! the written test.. IB we study that iraq iran bush democratic republican all that... 7 of the 10 questions i learnt in IB before.. bloodie hell. i forgot the answers.. Guess what! Came out! then after face to face interview with lec...i show the dmsm bbw mag.. TNT one article cos B man these ppl... i write, but they never publish!! !@#$ Then... After that.. the lec told me "by the way, pls do read newspaper at least 20 misn each day. you failed your MCQ!" im like.. loss for words man.. hahas!! Funny la.. retarded man!

Then.... Now 17 goign for SMU Interview! Hope i get in man.. applied on Tuesday night 11pm plus.. Next day 12noon, got a call from them go interview! im like! wah so fast??? Wink Wink!

Results im ok la.. satisfied.. at least this sem no C. Only one stupid C in my entire grades. that also Boo one.. for QM. But thought can do better for PR or CRM. So Sad! ;(

Nvm... Like this la.. So Far!!

Never go my work dept like 8ppl one gathering dinner at KK rest at Dhoby Ghaut there.. jsut no mood... work ppl, i cant tlak about work. need to de-stress!!!

Tom, actually today, gonna go for Hi Tea thing at Royal Hotel.. i already saw.. outside got statue one.. like owmen roman type.. im prepared!! Tom i gonan take pics! im gonna POSE!!!! And take pics. fcuk the bebeh budiyah there la.. all they know is to padh.. and let the gas come out.. and yak their big gossipy mouths only.. and show their golden teeth... which had Ghee passed thru their mouths... and their whatever coconut hair oil they put into their jurda hair.. and die with india type hair dye in black color... Budi oh Budi.. Mujhe ko peta.. I will be old too one day. But your hear ah.. your nouth ah... Too much already. Go chebuk your own backside first.. then come interfere ppl problem. Your own bonde so dirty.. you want to clean other ppl one is it> why so nice smell is it? got perfume ah?? <<< RETARDED! THIS IS LAME! GOOD NIGHT!

Wanted to update... yest after work went with Poonam to TBP... cos YORK Boutique having sales! member 50% discount!! Spent $66+!!!! Bought 3 pieces.. 1 skirt and 2 tops... i love the clothes i bought.. thinking of going back to get more stuff.. My dress... and crop jacket.. and this tie front black jacket.. i bought whte.. my mum said get black too! Yeah i think i should.. its so versatile.. $20 cant ever get again! Lucky i work la! if not die!! Bought for Sheru 2 doggy bones.. like the toothbrush design one.. i dont really buy things for him one,, i saw eh only 80cents each.. and still had 25% discount on top of that.. so bought 2! Buy la! Then after that went eat BK.. Wow! TBP.. Sec sch days man.. Hahas!! Made use of my student card.. student meal chicken sandwich is only $4.50!!! SO much cheaper than buy off hand its like what? $6!!!!



I Always Love prints.. Finally manage to find somehting nice, somehting i can carry off in Prints! So Marks n Spencer type.. but 1/4 the price!!! UP $46.90... NOW: $23.45


Bought this at York Jurong Point... The neckline is like those rolled up type.. i liked it.. and in one of my fave colour... Turquoise/Teal Blue! @$19.95

Ah! I liked this.. but this was one size tad too big... the arms there i didnt like cos droopy! Has one size smaller in pinkish orange.. but i didnt fancy the colour.. didnt flatter me.. i loved this blue!!! But.. no smaller size! AARGH!!! Wasted.. only owuld have cost $20!

Been always looking for a dress to wear.. somehting liek this type.. this was the closest i oculd find! This was in my size.. But in BLUE! I so wanted the black.. but the black also in bigger size.. AARGH! UP$80.. Now$40! So wasted!

This is the Black.. but now i look at it.. Hmm.. Maybe the blue is nicer? come one gurlz.. Tell me!! So i can buy before the size runs out.. And before the sale ends! Can stock up now.. Oh i shuld be losing weight.. so shouldnt buy more clothes.. but i cant resist! Same as the above blue dress.. but which is nicer?

This was the food i made the other day. Me COOK???? See, the other day, when i didnt go work cos too lazy to wake up in the mornign raining..., My mum said fry the fish... I look at my bro, and pity him. Cos fry the dory fillet n eat with plain rice?? Im like.. What kinda lunch is that? So.. SO>>> I made kicap fish... haha.. funnily, my brother loved it. My sis Loved it too! Then i saw hey got vegetables in the fridge.. i put half tofu and made beges.. my god.. i didnt knwo it was so simple.. and best part? I didnt know i could actually cook this kind of simple HOME COOK FOOD by MYSELF!!! >???

And I play Crazy Taxi... I AM SO ADDICTED PLAYING IT!! EVEN DURING CNY period, exam study week, i was still PLaying to destress.. actually, i was just addicted to it! These are my best 3 scores so far...

$$26,290.24 $$25,643.59 $$24,282.67

I just cant wait to do up my blog before writing entries.. Cos i totally need to let this off my chest. Today at work Was Horrendous!!

First, i signed in at 8:45am... 15 mins late.. but nvm la.. i made up for it by staying back 30 mins extra... So first thing, F told me to quickly go set up lap top, then meet at meeting room3. Wanna talk to 3 of us.. Im like??? Ok nvm.. then later came to know email got audited by external parties... Terrible! My email i sent did not answer the person queries.. instead i gave a whole long lecture.. then got to the point.. Cos i take from SR what! I see thats what ppl been diong.. so follow suit! OK nvm.. i understand my mistake. i should make it more personalised. Haiz... so i scored dman low.. the way F told me, my heart SANK LA! SANK! cos im like.. my ogd is it THAT BAD??? then... nvm.. later evening.. i got complain.... im like Shit la.. one thing after the other! I misinterpreted the cust wrongly.. i thought she want to compare syllabus... but goodness... some accreditation thing?? God! I didnt know!! GOODNESS SAKE! NEXT TIME PLEASE LA!!! WRITE IN PROPER ENGLISH CAN OR NOT!!!! AT LEAST THIS SINGLISH IM WRITING NOW IS STILL UNDERSTANDABLE!!

YOu want complain complain... you write your english properly first la! then ppl can understand you better and can serve you better.... You want me to read your mind is it!!!! Get to the point la! GOODNESS SAKE> SINGAPOREANS!!! PLEASE LA. BRUSH UP ON YOUR ENGLISH. HWo want to understand you? How the world want to understand you!!!!! You cant always continie speaking in Chinese one right!!! Learn english la.. Speak and Write well. Make the effort.

Then.. worse part.. F ask the interns.. one of them.. to CLEAR MY DRAFTS!!! I no longer can send mail out anyhow.. EVERYTHING MUST GO IN DRAFT FOLDER FIRST... And the intern can send out my draft... if she think its ok.. Wah!!! HEART PAIN AHHHH!!! HEART PAIN MAN> I Temp man.. Then wah intern clear my mail?? heart pain one la.. haiyo..

Then.. funny thing i dont understand. WHY The bomb must all drop on me today????? HUH! later on, D ask me... why i dont change the source of mail or somehting.. in my heart im like.. HUH?? I never knoew msut change one.. i was here as intern for 11 weeks.. now as temp im here 4 weeks.. and today first time you come and tell me i msut change the source of email?? Im like in my heart WTF?? Means all this while ive been doing wrongly?? Then after so long, today come and tell me??? they didnt realsie earlier????

Wah! Today dman sucks one man.. Totally!! heart Pain man... Wah! Feel like want to cry.. but i try maintain myself.. stay strong... no use cry one la.. be strong.. act strong.. pretend strong.. my mistake yes i understand.. tell me so i can improve myself... but then again... i dont get to chose whatever mail i want anymore. its all in my folder.. and what comes i do.. im sorta 'encouraged' put it in a nicer way.. to clear in my folder.. if i really dont know, put to draft.. i cant be putting all to draft right!!! Then i sit so far away from my dept.. im sitting wit the CC there... sucks one la.. last time i felt bored.. cos CC ppl usually talki discuss case amongst themselves all that.. now HC sit with me.. she join CC... But still la.. if i sit with my dept, no probs.. i can anytime ask one.. here i sit so far.. i scared to disturb WK cos he seems busy with his work one...

Then.. wait.. yesterday! I look at this email i scared la... about TG one.. i scared i answer wrong.. i kalang kabut already see the email, mentally shut myself off.. i know i should have tried one la.. most of the time when i see something diff, i try one la.. i take 2nd look and try it... But this time right.. i just too scared to answer it, i put back in inbox...

then D come ask me..... why you put back.. apparently, she had 'shouted' out loud.. saying how come i put back in inbox when it was simple case! And F later came to me and said... why?i didnt knwo how to answer? i said i scared i answer wrong la.. cos F said D say i go trainign already.. how come dont knwo how to answer? Then going home time i sign out.. B ask me how is the training useful?? etc etc.. im liek yes it is.. i learn stuff la.. better to answer email etc... Then she sorta like 'admitted' that yeah cos D was saying.. how come i put back TG email into inbox.. im like.. i thought my rute or somehting liek that.. i scared to answer wrong.. B ask me try la.. im like.. yupps! I will try next time... But lucky B is the kind of person whos nice.. tell me nicely.. like encourage me to try...

its not like i never try.. so many i dont know.. i jsut hentam hit whack n try one.. but this one im like.. mentally i got scared, put off by the info i saw.. Sucks man!!! SUCKS!!!!!!!!

I feel like QUITTING LA> i dont want work in this line anymore.. cos im perfectionist.. i cant see myslef making mistakes.. i must be tip top 100% one... i set dman high standards for myself. im afraid to fail. but im not gonan quit cos its so petty if i quit. and the $$ is good.. its jsut sit down answer email;....

But today really dman chialat one man.. really really depressed. Tom got dept go out dinner.. i plan already to go.. now i dont knwo how to face the rest of them.. esp when everyone not my dept only knwos about the stupid complain... im like.. shits man! so malu. where to put my face!!!!????

now i think i no mood to go out tom to celebrate la.. i feel damn depressed n down... dont feel like doing anything... lucky today go out with Poonam.. didnt feel the stress n pressure man... felt so light hearted.. tried clothes.. bought 3 pieces! York having sales.. clothes not bad one man!! upload the pics soon! Yipea! but spent $66.. still want to spend more! but no $$$$!!!

Haiz.. life ah... really sucks at times. im depressed.